Do you ever ask questions and expect a certain type of answers? That's what I often do to my boyfriend. And sadly he is a very different person than I am, so when he does answer it from his heart, I get upset and upset him at the same time,

People enter into relationship with expectation. Mine is lots of assurance, comfort and security. Which means even if I've scratched his precious car accidentally, I don't mind the lecturing, but I want him to still hold my hand even if he's pissed of me. It feels like forgiveness, a comforting grip after a mistake.

I'm a troubled kid with very distorted cogniton and behavior sometimes. I sulk until the cows come home when I don't get what I want. It's just like when I was 7 yrs old, I so wanted a Mickey mouse watch and I just couldn't convince my parents to give me. So being desperate, I 'borrowed' my friend's watch home. Her parents came all the way to my house to take it back. The rest of the story was lots of tears and bruises from caning.

The moral of the story is I've tried too hard, and I've turned bitter over time.
Materials, relationship and life, I've tried too hard wanting something that may not be mine.

Matthew 6:33: But seek first His kingdom and righteousness. And all these will be added to you.